The Feeling of Nothing

I'm wondering what happened to yesterday. Where did those feelings go? How? And why so far away?

Today has been so full: six miles for orphans, a twelve page paper, a pajama party thrown.

But still I miss yesterday. I miss the days of ache and wonder and newness and butterflies. Yes, I even miss the ache, because in the ache I still felt something. And feeling makes me feel alive. I haven't felt anything in a good while. I've cried myself numb. Disconnected.

Wake me up before I make yesterday my today. Give me sensation before tomorrow looks like the days gone by. Make the feeling of nothing go away. Help me feel before I relive the ache of yesterday.