This God of Mine.

"I called on the Lord in distress; The Lord answered me and set me in a broad place.
The Lord is on my side; I will not fear.
What can man do to me?
The Lord is for me among those who help me;
Therefore I shall see my desire on those who hate me.
It is better to trust in the Lord
Than to put confidence in man.
It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in princes...
The Lord is my strength and song,
and He has become my salvation.
The voice of rejoicing and salvation
is in the tents of the righteous;
The right hand of the Lord does valiantly.
The right hand of the Lord is exalted;
The right hand of the Lord does valiantly.
I shall not die,
but live,
And declare the works of the Lord"
Psalm 118

I found these verses a severe comfort this morning. More than that, they are an expression for my heart as it rejoices in God my Savior.

Yesterday morning, I was researching online, looking at various international ministries that I may be able to serve with after graduation. Honestly, and I'm a bit embarrassed to admit this, I just googled "international mission ministries". I figured I would recognize some of the good ones from being around Moody.

The first one I came to was SIM (Serving In Missions) International. I wandered around their site for a bit, reading their belief statements and such. I saw the link, "Apply" and I clicked it. Most of these sites have it so that you send them your information and they mail you an application. So I put in my information and clicked "Next". On the next page, I realized that it was the actual application. I was in the process of applying online without realizing it or intentionally seeking it out. Without thinking, I continued to fill it out. That is, until I was shocked by what I was doing.

I stepped away from my computer; no, jumped is more like it. "No, no, no, Lord," I said aloud. "I'm talking to You about this." So I laid on my bed and opened my mouth to pray. When I did, there were no words. Just the conviction, "Sit down and finish that."

"But," I protested, "It's so fast, so irrational."

"Sit down and finish that."

I didn't. I laid there stunned. A smile crept across my face. "Lord, You might actually let me do this? You might actually let me go around the world with You?"

I giggled like a little girl. Then sat down and finished the application.

They didn't have a position description for what I'm wanting to do, so in the "Comments/Questions" box, I wrote out my own description of what I would like to do.

I wrote:
"My conviction is to tell the stories of those who cannot tell their own. I would like to find an organization that would like updates on their missionaries, and then go and spend time with each of the missionary families or communities in various countries and tell their story through writing and photography. I would like to join them in their ministry for approximately a month, learning about them and the culture in which they serve. Then I would like to return to the US and tell their stories in an effort to assist them raise financial and prayer support. I am hoping to do this in the year between graduation from Moody and seminary at Denver Theological Seminary. SIM comes highly recommended to me, and I believe the Spirit has let me to apply. So, this is my offer and calling. Please let me know if you can use me to your benefit and our God’s glory."

And I sent it in. That's it.

I don't know what God is going to do with this. Maybe nothing "practical." Maybe this was just to grow my faith, and that is fine by me. But maybe, just maybe He's up to something big, something eternal. And that? Well, I'm more than fine with that, too.